Thursday, November 27, 2003

today was a day i will never forget. the time is now12.20 am and i am still online, still chatting with shimin. today was the first time i ever saw the sentimental side of him and i am truely touched. i really am. never had he poured his heart out to me like that.. he was telling me about all the precious moments he and his ex had. come to think about it, it was really sweet, their puppy love, their first true love..and how the love that bonded them broke and hurt them so.

when he was talking about all those things she had done for her and how he had not cherished her. and how he had regret, i too, wished i had the power to turn back time to let them have a second chance. the way he described the events and his feelings, it was so sweet, so innocent... and so painful. my heart was practically aching and i really felt for him. if i was not so hyped from the games at my friends house, i am sure i could have cried. for those lost chances that he had.

love is such a painful thing. like he said, she was an angel sent from heaven and such an angel deserves a guy better than me.. for him, such an ego guy to tell me such things is really something.. i will keep those moments that he had shared with me today.. i now knows he will never really break another girl's heart. at least not purposely..

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Thursday, November 20, 2003

today went for another softball training.. wahahahha there was this really cool guy around. jeffery. ming cheng's fren.. he is from ngee ann.. one of the better players in singapore.. wah his pitching so fast.. haiz..

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jaded out
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Monday, November 17, 2003

hey hey hey. today, for the first time in my life, i went to eat sakae sushi.. wah lau eat until want to vomit.. there was the rule that all wasted food would be charged... so we took too much and we had to stuff ourself.. was so dumb... went there at 3. then were we almost finished at around 4. but we were thinking this was too short a time to spent for a $15 meal. hai so we played the zhong ji mi ma game.. haha i never zhong in the beginning cuz i was not that full, could still think. then halfway thru the game, i was eating something.. and then i zhong and have to eat the pea.

so for every pea that i ate, i drank half a cup of tea.. i guess 10 rounds into the game.. i was laughing too much. and too much gas went into my stomache so i became very full. not only did it made me full. i was getting dumber too. if they say zhong ji mima is a game where we don't need to think, it is bullshit.. wah lau i ended up eating so much pea i wanted to puke.. but still i ate less than weiying wahahaha. she was the overall loser i think..

i had to excuse myself cuz i was totally bloated... needed to get some things out of my system.. talking about toilet.. so embarsseing.. i saw laypheng then i wanted to chase after her. then i realised she had gone to the toilet.. stupid as it sounded i actually went to chase her somemore. westmall. forgot which toilets were guys and which were for females. i tried to read the sign and there were no words just a picture.. in my hurry, i misread the picture and anyway it was not clear since it was silver and the light prevented me from seeing it clearly. so when i pushed the doors.. a middle-aged man was just about to come out. i was stunned for a moment.. in my mind i was thinking.. erm why is the toilet blue and how come there is a guy walking out of it.. i stepped aside and let the man out.. it was after he left that it dawned on me that i was in the wrong toilet! thank god there was no one else in that toilet.. i was so bloody embarressed i went back into sakae sushi.. hai.. my first time... erm.. hai...

as i was saying, i went to get some things out of my system then when i came back there was a fresh plate of watermelon.. i was like, we still have i cheesecake and 2 sushi to squeeze down and there was another plate of watermelon!! after that was totally childish as usual. adel and weiying were fighting for water melon. both of them would reach for the melon and the same time and try to get the melon into their mouth.. watermelon juice was flying all over the place. the melons were gone and adel asked for more watermelon and i was .. (-_-").. more melon juice was to follow. they were very noisy like 2 xiao za bo.. we made the waiter serve us watermelon 4 times. i was so paiseh..

hai i am so full and sleepy now.. can't even walk properly. never have i been so full..

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jaded out
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003

was chatting with simon the other day. then i made a startling discovery about myself. i am actually the worset conbination possible - a control freak and a perfectionist. i did not really believe it myself at first. but the more i think about it, the more i realise it is true. i like things to be in control. to be my control. or things that are going smoothly. if not i don't want to do it. so i guess when i realise that i was very unhappy with alot of things in school i wanted out... i seriously wanted to back out. like alot of stuff.. don't like so back out.. but soemtimes, i force myself to make changes. like my o levels. really wanted to give up during the mid year.. l1r5 36. what the hell..

hai.. how am i supposed to change that.. it's like part of my personality. i don't want it to cost me my future.. next time go uni how? cannot mah. (-_-)'' so frustrating...

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今天是我的第一次.. 今天, 我去弄了眉毛. 有点怪怪的. =p maybe cuz it's a new look so i am not used to it so i think look weird.. wah lau. me and adel went. then i went first. after a few cuts, i opened my eyes and got a shock of my life. i had never seen myself so so little eyebrow. don't look like myself loh. but see long liao then not so bad.. it made me look really old having them like that. mine were shaved. so means next time must pluck myself... was also shocked seeing adel after her's was done.

mommy didn't scold me leh.. then she told me about last time when she got married then she had hers plucked. then she always trim. now don't even need to trim.. cuz it stopped growing.

did not go for softball today because i need to go and fix my student pass. diao.. hmm. wondered what they did today. must have done pun.. i want to do.. i think it is so cool!!! especially the use butt of the bat one.. !!!! i like!!!

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jaded out
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003

here, sitting in front of my computer, i feel at ease. life is peaceful, i can hear birds chirping. crickets calling for their mates... ahhhh.. this is life. this is life without pw. today is 11/11/03 and i bet it is and auspicoius date. everything went smoothly. met biwen, and judith and chee hui. hai hai rv's getting worse and worse man.. so is the unit.. hmm.. dunnoe lah. will go visit sometime soon..

don't have anything to type acutally. got nuthing to do. feel a bit weird. hmm...

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Friday, November 07, 2003

today was chinese ao. erm nuthing much to say. then later went out to eat seoul. was with shawn, yongliang and eugene. called at 6. 30 asking whether want to watch movie. ok lah. then later changed to eat dinner. call so late, no one want to go. since ppl live in jurong come down for dinner. at 6.30...

realise yongliang must have had a very sad childhood. didn't know about the games we played in childhood. only know scissors paper stones.. *shake head* hm.. today shawn was definitly wearing something better than that time at the movies. thinking of it makes me shudder.. green shirt with hulk on it.. today slightly better, was like a walking hong bao.

can't believe that chen yong liang actually suggested the zoo. i sent the email to go someone's house for bbq. then they want chalet. hm want too but who will go and most importantly, money.

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Tuesday, November 04, 2003

dang. my name has been taken out of the immersion program. oh well. won't be in the mood for the trip. somemore it's with johnny in the group. kinda embarrssing. said 'that johnny had better not vote himself for any of the post in the house. if he does, i will punch him.' haha did not know he was actually sitting just in front of me. anyway, the class had a fun time laughing and mimicking him. too bad..

hey gotta say. am really amazed at how listening to something repeatedly can make you love it. just repeat the same cd 6 -5 times... try it.

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jaded out
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Monday, November 03, 2003

lalala.. wah monday is here again. 0[-_-*]0. hai feeling a tinge of apprehensiveness. decided to do somemore pw. and then chinese. not much to type about today. life is boring. saw micheal with gf today. was a tinge disappointed in his taste. they were holding hands. hai the girl was a little below plain jane. hmm..

countdown*
chinese ao:4days
pw op: 7days

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jaded out
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Sunday, November 02, 2003

today is a sunday. what a day. finished doing something to the pw file. and moved on to read my script for op. tml the school's gonna give out the result slips. oh well. i think i am taking in the news rather well. all thanks to my frens out there. thank you thank you. i appreicate your care and concern. i guess i have more time to think about stuff then those who are gonna be retained after they fail their retest. yar?

as i was saying, didn't do much today. watched loads of taiwanese varity shows and surfed the net for kunda's photos. hai.. waste time. but wat to do.. my briliant mind tells me that it would be the same for the next 3 months when school reopens.. no one is gonna really study then. but of cuz i have do at least some. come to think. it's kinda lame. hai.. my brain is buzzing with alot of qns...

oh. ya. it seems that yixin the next in line for 4g ppl who have steads. hohohoho. who is already attached if they are still? shareen, robbin, eng keat, shimin, yixin. gonna organise another 'meet the parents' session. everyone is guess who is next.. hahaha

ŧōdaγ ώi|| ßє ŧђє ρasт ŧōмoѓґōώ

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jaded out
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