Tuesday, December 30, 2003

reflection of 2003
2 more days before 2004 comes. i hope it would be a good year.. but i don't know.. life these days is so ... unpredictable. looking back at 2003. it is true that many have died. hongkong veterans roman tan, leslie cheung, anita mui... many great actors and writers have also died but i just remember their names.. next, many died from SARS outbreak. this was indeed a depressing year for ppl of hongkong. i do hope that this bad luck would not carry into 2004. haiz.. though i doubt so..

2003 is a year, i have to say, a year of great changes for me. used to the comfortable sheltered, protected environement of rvhs, i ended up in jjc. an enviroment more like the cruel cruel world of reality. because of the new enviroment, i was more sensitive than usual. i was suspicous of all going around me. with not friends around, i was on high alert, becoming too oversenstive sometimes. ill at ease was how i felt most of the year. i suppose i was reluctant to let go of the past. and make the necessary changes. i think this was one of the few things i regretted not doing.

when the slightest obstacle appeared, it would seemed so overwhelming. instead of dealing with these obstacles, i prefered to put them out of my mind. when they kept surfacing at the back of my head, i did what i could to 'delete' them. well, sometimes i would spend hours brooding over them, by not doing anything to change or correct them. the truth was, i did not want anything to change.. but that is a childish notion. time and tide waits for nobody.. time files and changes come..

before i knew it term 3 was ending soon and the exams were here. i was enlightened, i had procreastinated and took my time to adapt. changes were made but the surroundings change faster than you think. now that i have been retained, i hope that it would the final wake up call and that after that, i would have truely realised my mistakes. the year had been tough; things did not go well - i learnt and i learnt well. with this downfall, i shall move on with more determination, with more confidence and if possible with more for future battles. i have fallen once but i shall not fall again.

with this, i would like to thank 03A3 of the first intake, who had made the 3 months of my life so colourful. namely some more important ppl: nat, quen, mabel, shikin, jas, shihui, nadz. [sorry if i left out anyone] though the time was short, it was unforgettable. i truly miss the times we all sat together for lunch and pe too.

next i would like to thank class of 03A1. though it was not as close as i hoped it would be, we managed ok and even shared some good time together. i hope that in the year of 2004, the class would be more bonded. to the special few in the class, i really thank you very much for being there when i was feeling so insecure. to the girls, liz, nadiah wenhui, shuwen, angela, yalan, peichun, i thank you for making jc bearable. to the guys, shawn and yongliang, i thank you for some of the happy moments. of cuz i have to thank my pw group. we have managed to pull through the subject we all love to hate. hope that all the labour we have put in would pay off.

also to the classmates of 4g especially, the members of c6.. hee hee. my beloved ncc mates whom we have been through much thick and thin together. last but not least, my dearest soulsisters: weiying, adelene, peigeok and sheena. thank you for being there for me when times were tough. thank you for tolerating me when i get irritating or annoyingly talkative/lame.
love ya all and god bless.

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jaded out
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Monday, December 29, 2003

wahaha christmas was just stepped into the fourth day of christmas. hm did the usual stuff and got grounded for going out too much.. but so much for being grounded.. i am free once again! need to go out tml. then on wednesday i am going to watch movie. but hor must be careful to be home early.. not to go beyond 5? yaya.. or else will start nagging.

hee hee. me saving up money. despite it being the holidays. i have managed to get to $89! hurray! but then i bet in a months time all will disappear. haiz. MUST MUST RESIST!

and school starting soon dunnoe wat to do now also. i think i will go crash other ppl's jc.. hee hee i am mad man. going crazy.. oh ya i still have some vouchers to spend. how leh?

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jaded out
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Wednesday, December 17, 2003

wanna clarify.. the girl in the previous entry is not alicia. the girl that has been shimin's gf since he went into sa. it is the gf b4 alicia.. haiz.. i wonder if it is a little late.. i bet the news has spread like wildfire.. =p not my fault.

for those who wondered where i have been these days.. i was having fun. for the past 2 weeks, i have been going to chalets, and various shopping trips. i am not at home almost everyday. daddy is kind of pissed. so i am really careful when i go out these days.. would not want to be grounded.. when christmas is coming.. yeah.. prezzies and cards ! plus christmas dinner! haiz now no money liao.. all spent in the beginning of the holidays. now haven't got enough..

kind of waiting for school to start so that i can feel rich again.. haiz.. i don't have allowance in the holidays.. feel so sad.. cannot replanish my piggy bank.. it is now hollow. i am getting money from my mom to go on my window shopping trips. today's k box experience was ok.. just that i had to leave halfway.. cannot play to my money's worth.. haha next time i will sing eason chan's songs cuz his songs are the kind that i can reach..

adelene says sometimes i sing sound like chanting 'nian jing'. then sometimes i sing also keep changing the range. sometimes damn low then suddenly go high again haiz.. wat can i say, my voice range is really very cham lah.. cannot switch smoothly. then my voice too low liao.. so i sing and sound like chanting.. hohoho..

would not mind to go again =) but i would rather go alone.. or ppl i am confortablew with cuz haiz my singing really bad lah.. young that time sing too much then nearly lost my voice.. now my voice abit not so good.. but don't care lah..

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jaded out
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