Sunday, April 18, 2004

hmm for the 1st time in many years, i slept so much. from 9 plus last night to 7 plus today. 10 hours. OMG, i am becoming like theodric!! arh cannot!!! haiz. i sit here and feel weird.. i dunnoe wat i am doing.. then spent the whole day doing math, wanted to do miss tie's hw but.. but... but.. very tough leh. i can do but explain like she wants it? that is tough..

i have this very weird thinking. i think i play better when i don't get enough sleep. seriously. that time at the carnival also like that.. then at the hc match even better. then yesterady, i got such a good night rest. then like that. haiz. sianz. dunnoe wat was wrong with me yesterday. i know why i made so many mistakes. i was not paying attention. and i was not thinking about all the plays in my brain.. i nearly missed the ball that was hit straight to me.. wah if i did not see i am very sure it would have hit my face.. but still i failed to catch it and it grazed my thumb.. though my thumb did not hurt then, it did when i was writing and typing. sian. why this year so many injuries.. screw it lah.

haha then on the bus back home from rj, alicia tried to pull a trick on theodric. cuz theodric was dozing off on the bus and he had his phone in his hand. then alicia tried once to try to take the phone away when he was sleeping.. then she was not careful enough and he woke up.. haha soon theodric was asleep again and she wanted to do her second attempt. but i think he anticipated that and when he felt that alicia was trying to pull the phone again, he suddenly pulled his phone away and scared the shit out of alicia. she literally jumped in her chair and screamed. haha it was so funny. i think i like to luagh at ppl's expression.. haha dunnoe why, but haha very funny..

oh wednesday training was super funny. the guys were trying to pull each other's pants down.. at 1st it was chinmay and jebu who wanted to pull brian's pants down. well they sort of accomplished it.. they were rolling on the ground and keep tugging at brian's pants until we could see the whole of the underwear.. haha.. then brian went to seek revenge with jebu. when jebu was caught unaware, brian pulled it down!! wahahha me, kiam and alicia were ard to see the whole thing... i could not stop laughing.. i was rolling on the ground. haha. then someone attempted haoran. but of cuz was not successful cuz haoran has such fast reaction. haha. fun fun fun..
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dunnoe what is wrong with me, i get very hyper for no real reason. i think i am going mad soon.

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Saturday, April 10, 2004

di da di~ di da di~ di da di~ da di da di~ haha super happy today even though i am super tired. we were playing the match with hc today. and i have to say, i was very on form today! i was able to hit the ball! i did a couple of good plays wahaha happy.. for the 1st time, ming cheng praised me!! woohoo~ and this is the 1st time he let me play the full game. another thing i am happy with myself is cuz i did well!! i pulled thru! i really wanted to give up halfway. after that horrible inning. i was dizzy, tired, and hot. but then i had no guts to tell ming cheng, then i also didn't want yuhui to play cuz i think she was not ready lor.. this was the only chance to prove myself and i cannot let it go. so i pulled thru!!!

haiz come to think about it, another reason why i was not smiling like nobody's business is cuz yuhui was the only one who did not play today. then she was very sad. i understand how she feels lah. cuz i have been in her situation before, i know how it feels. but haiz, i don't know if me not letting her play is for the good of the team or for my selfishness.. either way, i feel guilty. haiz haiz haiz.. then not everyone was smiling lah... then i cannot smile and smile and smile right.. must control.

yeah and the double play that i have been waiting for has finally come!! i thought i could only dream about it lah.. but no!! it came true!!! haha so dreams do come true. yeah!! but must not be complacent. must be like in the game. be steady and neutral. concentrate on the game. if i keep up my standard, anything is possible.. wish me luck! life is indeed beautiful and the ball is round, anything can happen..

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jaded out
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Friday, April 09, 2004

hmmm after a long hiatus, i have finally come back to type something on my blog. wahahaha.. this calls for celebrations man.. wah i think this is the longest i have ever gone without updating my blog.. hmm in this period of two months, there is alot that i can update on.. wahahaha..

1st on the list.. finally got my class.. don't really have much of an impression on the class but most of the people are from my old clique so it's quite ok lah.. dionne, yonghui, andre, joel, elieen ya. and mr leow is my ct. ms tee is my econs tutor and some indian woman is my gp tutor. boring like hell that is what they said to me. kct is taking me for history all year ard - shall see her for every lesson of hisotry. and she is also my class's pw teacher!! how exciting?!! thank god i am done with pw.. just wonder how i did for it..

2nd point is the nationals are here!! i finally understand softball. i amso glad. it's really interesting to see how it goes.. it really gives you the adreline rush.. but if it is not competitive, its not fun.. haiz the nj match was horrigible arh.. but i think with the new and improved training.. i think we can still hold it there.. just wished that it's we who play 1st and not the guys. then can watch them play. cuz their's is more exciting.. and that would bring me too the 3rd point.. that is i got my jersey!! and the softball t!!! haha i designed the shirt k. so i am damn happy.

no 4. today i went shopping with weiqi. have got so many things in my mind to buy - wallet, waterbottle, shoes, bag, watch, slippers, pencilbox, shirt, pants, jeans.. wahaha the list goes on. but i think i saw a rip curl wallet... but not sure if i want it. haven't got the change to look at it seriously... too many people walking in the shop.. sian.. then we came to this shop at wisma. wah lau. i went in the walk one round and stepped outside for a while. then the stupid security thingy started to peep. and everyone inthe shop looked at me lah.. then the sales person took my stuff and wanted me to walk thru the security thingy.. passed my bag and my bag of currypuffs thru the system.. and i was clear lor, wat the hell. then the shop was just outside the coffee club. and i think everyone sitting there was looking at me. shit technology man..

no 5. my 18th birthday just passed!! woohoo. i am now 18 years and 15 days old. haha that itself is a great thing!! it was a very happy birthday for me this year. hee hee.. but every year it's different. but yah.. 18 already so it means that there are alot of things that i must learn to do myself. must do it!!

no 5. haha i think i am just one happy girl.. life is beautiful.. haha i wonder why.. wahaha i think i am mad. haha. though feeling happy is something quite rare these days, i am still happy whahah. i am sprouting nonsense. feeling quite hyper these days esp ard softball training. then again, i think that is the usual me. hence i have not been myself for quite sometime already cuz of .... =p but i think part of the reason for me being so hyper lies in the fact that i have nothing to do when i go to school. mass lecture and stuff. =p sometimes one day only have 2 lessons.. lame.. sometimes i skip the lessons. ya. but i do constructive work.. i do math and write my diary and sometimes catch up on my beauty sleep..

the future is before me.. i must grab hold of it tight and not let go!!!

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