felt like undating this blog for a while. actually i am feeling quite moody now. so different from how i was feeling yesterday. so hyper and everything. really lost. i mean i am very unsure how to handle my life now. seriously i am qute upset by that. cuz i can't decided what my prioities are. the options are
1. my school work
2. my own revisions
3. softball trainings
4. my social aka frens

i am freaking out. next week in the march holidays and that means the carnival is just less than a week away. what the fck. and i am not catching up with my work. i intend to tell simon straight in the face that i copied my homework and i am not coping and i am in deep shit and ask him for mercy and blah blah blah.. i hope i survive this. then i have to go to miss tie and beg for mercy and ask her to reteach me central banking and money. i am so fucking dead. i am not even sure if she will teach me. i have to literally beg her lah..

fuck my life man. it is totally spinning out of control again.. hope all goes well. i have so many plans with regards to my studies but softball? i dunnoe.. my mom was like telling me cca is not important but it is to me. my frens are telling me not t put in too much for ur cca cuz at the end of the day ur grade will suffer and u are gg to cry over spilled milk. and nothing that u do can turn back time. who the hell will care about how u did for softball. and it is not like the team was al the fantastic and u guys are gg to win some sb championship.. even the coach says that it would be a tough match. you are probably going to kill yourself.

oh i am in such a dilemma.. i only have so little time.. how am i ever gg to get thru this period. i wanna make the best of it and not screw it up. i really dun want to..